I do not struggle with forgiving past mistakes or wrongs against me. Time eases the wound and I am usually able to forgive the person for whatever happened. Its is when I am in the middle of the onslaught of dishonesty, betrayal and hurt that I struggle the most.
In Matthew 18:21-22, Jesus tells us how many times we are to forgive. Seven times seventy. I’ll save you from doing the math – 490 times. I am struggling with a huge issue that will probably exhaust at least half of that. And there are already so many in the past. What do I do when they have used up all the forgiveness I have to give?
I don’t expect to instantly forgive this person, especially for such an egregious offense. I imagine it will come in time. I am struggling with how in the world I will be able to be around this person until then. An apology has not happened yet, even though the person is fully aware of the problem. I don’t think I can do it. I cannot imagine faking nice when I am seething on the inside. Fake it ’til you make it just won’t work this time.
What Bible verses do you turn to when struggling with forgiveness? Any words of wisdom for me?